Remembrance: The Sound of Spirit Returning
Remembrance: The Call Of The Shaman
The Remembrance
There comes a moment when you remember who you truly are — not by logic, but by vibration. It was the 1st of November 2020 at 6.00 in the morning - a full super moon was shining through the darkness. It was our last session on the 200 hours of the YTT with Kashish Yoga. I was at home as the training was online due to the global pandemic. It was quiet, everyone was still asleep.
The session was meditation with Master Satya Ji. A special meditation, one of the OSHO's moving meditations. It was of four or five parts and the music changed with each of the parts. I remember that we have to shake or dance, breath fast and deep with open mouth, scream and then there was a stillness. I could remember that in the stage of the screaming I could not scream as everyone at home and nearby was asleep, so I was screaming without a voice like in a bad dream where one is speechless. I did that intentionally with the breath out. During the stage of the dance I got into a trance and start crawling and kneeling on the floor like a baby that is trying to start walking and then my body started to shiver. I remember that my husband just got downstairs and started preparing his morning coffee and breakfast and even that my inner self wanted to go into a full relaxed and trance state but my outer build up boundaries of how he will prejudge me were holding me up. Until one moment when I lost full control of everything... I just focused on the experience and let go of the surroundings but I allowed myself to be the observer of my self. The boundaries disappeared, and my body started to shiver and shake, memories appeared from ancient times. I saw myself dancing and singing and feeling around a massive fire in the middle of the nature in an ancient village build from tepees. I was healer, dancer, wise one guiding and envisioning the future. SHAMAN. I was shaman. The middle of my palms got hot, my body shivered - all tingling and vibrating, my breath connected with the ancient me - centered and connected to the entire universe within, without, up and down and here in the center.
That morning I remembered I was a healer. The power within emerged and the calling become stronger. I realized why I followed the holistic path in this lifetime and why everything I studied looked like revising or remembering something long forgotten rather than a new theory or skill. Since that day I started to explore the world of Shamanism. I started looking for a teacher or a course but the one I found were far beyond my pocket affordability. So I started self studying through books and inner guidance. Not long after I found a man selling drums that were maid in Tibet and the money were used to support a local school there for unprivileged kids. I made my first investment and the first challenge arrived, knocking on the door. Our dog was born in May 2021 and joined me alongside my new drum and venture. The drum arrive in June/July time.
That same summer of 2021 my husband got very ill like never before. With extremely high temperature, shiver and no power to get out of bed for a good 5 days in a row. And he has a great health in general. We tried with paracetamol and herbal teas and massages but nothing seamed to help him. The Covid test was negative, so I suggested to do him a drumming with my new drum. I put him on the ground, lighted a candle, got the dog inside, kids in their bedroom, and pulled the curtains down. He lied on the floor on a few of my yoga mats and blankets, shivering of cold. His body was literally shaking. I started drumming and I went with the flow - the energy was whizzing and guiding me over the different parts of his body. The energy was controlling the drum beat and the rhythm. It went from quiet and unsure to its peak of strength and then it released, going back to steadiness and calm. And once we reached the peak he stopped shivering just like that...out of a sudden. I felt it. When I finished I asked him to tell me how does he feel and if he saw, heard or felt anything. He said that he just stopped shivering out of a sudden and everything is lighter now and he feels relieved. The next day he was fully back to his own powers and we were ready to begin our travel back to Bulgaria. I took the drum with me that summer and used it once at my parents in law house while the garden fire was on. My father in law freaked out as he said that this is not a normal drum. I asked him what makes him think so and he told me that he was observing the smoke of the fire. The smoke was spread around and going everywhere and once I started drumming the smoke became like a snake - in one line, focused and following the drum in its dance and rhythm. He asked me how I did that. I told him that I do not know yet. I am still learning and revising. I just follow my intuition.
The drum took me on a journey to different stages, travels around the globe, UK and Bulgaria. It helped me to overcome my self doubt, boosted my confidence and awaken and connected me fully with my intuition.
I found out that when I drum it can bring different benefits - healing, changing the weather and envisioning the future (predicting or seeing the invisible and weaving it into the physical). I do not like saying 'predicting' as then we define something to become and in the Universe there are unlimited possibilities and ways for something to become. If we define it we change the dynamic of the entire cosmos as we are all connected as beings and as time. There are a few timelines/time dynamics that are in motion at the same point of time and space, just that our understanding or consciousness is not perceiving it in that way yet. So, when I drum I do not predict and I just help one to see the possible outcome, so that one can find the way to it and overcome the challenge with ease. Sometimes I see it and understand it as a message and then pass it on to the person so that one can understand it with his level of consciousness. Other times the client himself get the message through picture or noise or feeling. And another times the message comes to the client awareness days or weeks later as an AHA moment during sleep, meditation or a conversation with someone.
Learning the topic of Shamanism led me ask myself if I am a Shaman, a Chakaruna or something even more advanced. But this is for me to discover along the path of my soul journey and earthly life, and my future adventures and experiences. In one of the books I read that a Shaman usually has only one ability - to heal, to change the weather or to predict/envision. Only very advanced Shamans can do 2 in very rear cases more of these skills at the same time.
What is a Chakaruna?
Chakaruna means "bridge person" and refers to someone who acts as a mediator between different realities. This can involve connecting the spiritual and material worlds, different cultures, or the past and the present.
A Chakaruna is considered a living bridge, not an assigned title, but earned through initiation, humility and devotion. They are skilled at translating ancestral wisdom into forms understandable by modern people. They carry spiritual practices across cultures, protecting their integrity while making them accessible. They navigate the modern world while honoring the deep, rooted wisdom of the Andes, living at both realities at once.
What is a Shaman?
A shaman is a person believed to have the ability to enter a trance state to communicate with the spirit world for healing, divination, and to guide others. They are seen as religious and community leaders who can diagnose illness, perform spiritual healing, and help the community by influencing events in the physical world. Shamans often use practices like singing, chanting, and drumming to achieve these altered states of consciousness.
You will learn more about these two from my next article. Now I will take you on a journey when the spirits reveled themselves to me.
When the Unseen Became Seen: Meeting The Ones Who Walk Beside Me
It was the 26th of June 2025. I was on a yoga retreat in a very special place. A hidden sanctuary, surrounded by nature, in the middle of the UK hills near Richmond - The Telfit Farm. A fully renovated farm house in a very modern style - a place where the ancient and the modern bridge, and create a unique sacred space. A space where the invisible and visible dance in synchronicity and intertwine to awaken consciousness.
I was a Karma yogi who was helping the yoga teacher that week. I did use the drum that night. The session was a combination of sound meditative journey led by the drum and solution focused coaching to connect the guests with their future goals and dreams. This was the first event on which I put protection to all the directions guided via my inner voice, without scriptures. I opened the circle in the morning and closed it straight after that session. Later on one of the guests lit the fire and we gathered around it as a group. Something inside me nudged me to take a mini video and a few pictures of the fire. I did so with a little struggle. The fire had an unusual glow, one that could not be hidden or avoided or unseen. Look at the pictures carefully as you will see the invisible world unfolding in front of you.
All of us looked at the video and we were shocked to see the 3 dotted skeleton worn as a mask by the raising hooded man behind. I looked at the pictures and the video in details in the following months until one day my husband pointed at the wolf (the 3 dotted mask/skeleton is actually a wolf. And the wolf in shamanism is like a portal or connection between the worlds and brings the message that a spiritual teacher is nearby, entering one's life.)
*** I cannot upload the video to the blog. Maybe the spirits do not want to be shown in the public space. If you observe the 3 pictures with the fire you will be able to see the dancing spirits and their presence.
When I saw the unfolding being in the video I felt calm and at peace like never before. So secure and safe. Until that point of life I could always feel the invisible side but have never been able to see it and I was full of doubt and insecurity and even sometimes fear if what I feel is real as there was no external verification. I could see in the being eyes the whole Cosmos and I could sense with my body how balanced the world was inside that being. He has a tremendous power. I could feel it with all my being. Only by internal intention he could wreck the entire cosmos and by his intention he could bring healing and peace. He could do that by choice. The message was clear - that I have the same power and I can choose when to switch it on and off. Everyone has that power and the balance is achieved only via internal choice and intention.
"Wherever the mind goes, energy flows. What are you focusing on today? What is your intention? What is your choice? Peace or anger? Health or illness? Love or fear?"
There was a message for me there, that the invisible world exist and now I have seen it, so did the others around me; but belief should be present even when the visible is hidden from the eyes. Follow the knowing, the calling, the intuition - this is where the invisible lives. In order a balance to be achieved a bridge should be formed between the inner knowing that was accumulated through the lifetimes and the external world through sharing. I have the feeling that I heard - 'Radka you have accumulated so much knowledge and experience and if you do not start sharing it out it will weight you down and you will poison yourself with it. Step into courage and trust that the path will unfold and share all that you know as this is why came back on Earth, to heal, to transform others and to show a different way of living through all your experiences. We are here to support you. You are not alone and have never been, neither you will ever be. Achieve the balance.'
There is a quote that goes around on the internet and one can meet it in a few books. It says:
" A Shaman was asked:
What is Poison?
Anything beyond what we need is poison. It can be power, food, laziness, ego, ambition, vanity, fear, anger or whatever."
Even though I could see the future unfolding in front of me since a child and could sense the invisible side and have tremendous inner knowing without explanation I closed the door to my intuition when I was a teenager. Stepping on to the mat and starting the yoga path in 2020 I connected back with my powers and the experience gave me more depth to the invisible world. I understood the mechanics and blue prints of life. That night I had a confirmation that it is time to step out and to start sharing. This is why I started this blog and the membership. Through them I hope to inspire you to take action in your own life and you to trust your intuition and invisible side as it is your inner compass. I am not here to teach you anything new. I am here to hold a space and time for you, so that you can remember Who You Are and connect or return to the Self, the core, the soul! I will share with you different techniques from different disciplines so that you can find the one that is best for you. Some of the techniques may exist in books or courses but I know them from within. They came to me during meditation or journeying. I will share more about this in future articles.
Telfit Farm is a unique place. The energies and the spirits are dancing freely there as it is very quiet and serene sanctuary. When you are ready to summon the spirit and to connect in full alignment with self, hire me and we will visit the Telfit Farm together. If you wish to embody the experience alone or with other guides feel welcome to reach out to Telfit team directly. You can find links to it in the location page of this site. I may write an article specifically on that location as every time I visit it I learn a new lesson and I upgrade to a new level of consciousness.
Gratitude
A special gratitude to the teachers who spread the message of Shamanism, energy work, intuition and the invisible power inside and outside our being. I am not affiliated in any way, neither I earn any commission or benefit from sharing the links and books. I have immersed on a self study and these are the springs from which I drink. I am sharing them as they may benefit your life as well in a better way.
My favourite one that I follow religiously and had benefitted immensely is Dr. Alberto Villoldo, the founder of https://thefourwinds.com/ . I started following him as he looks like my father father or my granddad. My grandad pass away in 2021 and shortly after that I saw Villoldo online and started following him and learning from him. He is teaching the Andean traditions of shamanism.
Sharon Ramel, I met her on Udemy. I bought 3 of her courses and O am still going through them. She has a Facebook group for her students where we can connect and learn and practice more in depth. She is an Australian Shaman. These are the three courses I am exploring with her:
Qi Hai Bio Energy with Joe McCormack on Udemy. Short course but detailed and very well explained. You can see the energy moving on the screen. The course is around meridians and energy clearing and healing. I am still going through it and practicing with the energy ball in my hands. Here is a link:
Karen Prieto - Ayahuasca Meditation and Andean Stellar Codes. This was the first course I joined on Udemy ever. She provide you with a booklet and very nice meditation and explanations of the chakra system and a little intro the the shamanic rituals. She has a site and teaches different energetic courses. Here is the link to Udemy.
David Verdesi - the main character at the Superhuman led by Lee Holden. The Superhuman series contain interviews and techniques from different disciplines around the world like tai chi, qi gong, energy work, breathwork, shamanism, kundalini, Taoism, Buddhism and others. You can find the series on a few platforms like Younity - https://www.younity.com/en/ , Clickbank - this is where I bough the course from - https://superhumanexperience.io/ and possibly on Gaia and other platforms. Google David Verdesi or Superhuman and it will bring on a lot of information.
The Shaolin Masters and more specifically Shi Heng Yi. I learn from his YouTube channel, Instagram account and a few Whatsapp groups that I participate in. When I saw him for the first time I had the feeling I knew him for millennia. His teachings and wisdom are the same as my inner understanding for the world and life. You can find more about him and what he offers on this website - https://shaolin.online/
Matias De Stefano - the person who took me to Dr. Alberto Villoldo. You can find Matias courses on the Four Winds website, Younity, Gaia and on other platforms. Here is his Instagram account - https://www.instagram.com/matiasgustavodestefano/
I love his chakra course. It gives different perspective, enriches one and help one connect on a deeper level with self.
I am still going through most of these trainings and teachings as they need time to be experienced and perceived. If one do not act upon certain teaching, there is not point of the teaching on the first place. I will share some books in the next article as it will be connected with this topic again.
I will be really thrilled if you share with me what stand out the most for you from my sharing so far?
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With much love,
Radka 'Supernova'
